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| So I literally thought I'd never say this but I'm in Arizona right now...about an hour away from the Grand Canyon and three hours away from Area 51. My sister and I left Colorado yesterday and have since driven through mountains, been to the "4 Corners" (which is where Colorado, New Mexico, Arizona, and Utah meet), and experienced the glorious Grand Canyon. It still has not hit me that I was there. We saw about 8 miles of the about 100 miles of canyon and I definitely don't think I could ever muster the courage to go down to the river. I could barely muster the courage to put weight on the guard rails. Beautiful. Simply beautiful. Now we are in the hotel room relaxing. We've driven almost 600 miles since Friday afternoon. Well, I should say that Lyndsey has driven almost 600 miles since she gets car sick when she rides so she's been driving the entire time. So yeah. Tomorrow we are heading out on Rt. 66 to see the Hoover Dam and go to Las Vegas for two days. Crazy times. But I'm really really tired right now so I think I'm done updating. The end  . ~Elyse | | |
| I've neglected my dear xanga. So much has happened since March...Easter Break at home, the crazy last three weeks of the semester, snow in April only to be replaced by gorgeous sunlight, finals week, and now home. See, you're all caught up  . Well, almost. I can slowly feel myself returning after a semester of being lost at sea. Now all I have to do is play catchup with my life--I have friendships to restore, a job to find, work to do, a room to find, and a sister to visit! Yes, you heard the last one correctly!! I leave in 4 days  . Colorado Springs, here I come for a month-long stay with my sis. We, she and I, will be flying back just in time to see my brother walk across the stage at graduation. I cannot believe that my little brother is graduating high school already. See? You check out for a few months and all of a sudden things change. Today should be fun though. I'm going to the Lilac Festival with a few friends from home and Irene! Yes, I've lived in the Rochester area for nearly sixteen years and I've never been. Yay for finally going! Then, tonight Jen is having one of her famous bonfire parties which means I get to see people I haven't seen since either Christmas or last summer. I love that so many of us still get together a few times a year. Welp, I should get to packing. Much love, ~Elyse | | |
| Well, it's H.E.L.P. Day and I'm sitting in the library not getting things done. Chaos reigns my life and I really am beginning to think that school is not my strong point. Perhaps I tried too hard to make myself into someone I'm not and am now suffering the consequences. After my meltdown this semester I've really begun to question any direction I had. I really am left with nothing it seems. I selected majors that I didn't know much about, that I seemed to do decently in, and ones that I thought I'd like to know more about. Perhaps this wasn't the best decision because, unfortunately, I don't think I'd cut it in either field. When I talk with my friends within my major and they begin to tell me so many things that they learned just because they spurred themselves to study more, I freak out! Do you know what I do during my free time? I talk with people. I invest all of my time into others because it's what I LOVE doing...but I have nothing to show for it. I have no credit for Encouragement 101 or Masochism 203. I have done nothing beneficial for my own career--I'm terrified at the prospect of actually having to do something when I leave here. This H.E.L.P. Day has done nothing but show me just how much I seem to have wasted my time. But I don't feel like I've wasted my time. I have amazing relationships that mean more to me than anything. I'd like to think I've helped them along their path of being successful. I have taken on the burden of the SGA and poured my all into it. That's got to count for something, right? Unfortunately the 20 years of paying back debt for the utter self-destruction I've partaken in the past few years just doesn't seem as smart as it did before. I'm in too deep. There's no turning back. Gosh, I quit. So, this is why I'm going to stay with my sister in June. I can't go into senior year this way. I have two senior seminars to do that will most-likely break me down to nothing. I have SGA to keep afloat. I can't do this. All I've got to say is this: HELP! you know I need somebody, HELP! ~Elyse | | |
| So the week from h-e-l-l is over...but I still have a "hangover"....meaning I didn't finish my paper that was due Friday at 5 sooooo I get to continue to work on that this weekend. Score. This means that I have now turned in three papers late in 2 weeks. I'm on a roll! But, for the record, I had a lot of fun this week--probably too much fun considering how much work I had to do but it's ok. I was able to spend a lot of time with my friends which I was procrastinating. It was so wonderful. I've been doing so much better since I got back from break. I'm really not as depressed as I was before. Somehow sleeping all of break really helped snap me out of it. Sure, things are still hard and I'm trying to make up for the past two months of doing nothing, but it'll get better. I'm going home today so that I can see my brudder in the musical!!!!!! Oh, how much I love musical season  . I can't wait to see it!!!!!!!! I also cannot wait to see my CA pals tonight too . So many wonderful things! Oh yeah, and Lecia is here this weekend!!! I haven't seen her since May 2005!!!! Yay!!! Ok, the end . ~Elyse | | |
| I want direction. There is a time for everything under Heaven.
I want strength. I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.
I want joy. Consider it pure joy whenever you face trials of many kinds.
I want to not worry. Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life?
I want to understand. Christian living, to Ignatius, is not following a set of ideas or adopting a set of values; it is falling in love with Jesus to such an extent that one will follow him wherever he leads at whatever the cost.
I want that kind of devotion. I need that kind of devotion. | | |
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